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13 May 2012 @ 10:45 pm
love note for lj  
Livejournal, I love you.

I've met some of my closest friends here at a time in my life when it mattered most... (not that it doesn't matter anymore.)
In my teens, out of high school and starting college, I found myself inspired, challenged and loved by people that inspire me still, even if from the vague mists of memory.
I say I met you when it mattered most because it was then that I was most lonely and building the framework for the person I've become (and continue to become).

I know it's been years and years, that I don't talk to many of you as often as I did (if ever at all), but I feel I need to acknowledge it, even if none of you are reading this.

But I want to thank you.

For your support throughout my angst, as I embarrassed myself with absurd theories, shared either too much information or too much of the inconsequential.
I deny none of it - though I've removed those entries.

I also removed the entries containing my creative work (though I still have little outbursts at si6nifi3r) because I decided to publish some of it.

And here it is:




The reason why I have to post about it here (though I'm posting about it pretty much everywhere) is because, if not for you, I may have not built up the confidence to share something as intimate with the whole world.

Through your comments and reactions, I've seen how my words mean something to you, how they stop being mine and becoming yours,
how my dreams and thoughts and feelings fail, fail, fail to be contained and
e x p l o d e,
but only from my point of view, when you read them.


This out of context quote is appropriate:

" A text is not a line of words releasing a single ‘theological’ meaning (the 'message' of the Author-God) but a multi-dimensional space in which a variety of writings, none of them original, blend and clash."

Roland Barthes, from "Death of the Author" - click and read, if so you desire.

Though this is one of the essays that blew my mind when I was much younger, fresh and begging for paradigm shifts (and which, I also mention briefly in SLF), this quote was underlined by thingsiveunderlined on tumblr.

I probably underlined it, as well.

My creative pieces, they just come out, and I never consider a reader during the process, which is why they are so undeniably sincere.
But my first readers ("audience"), when it mattered, and when I didn't even realize what was happening, were you.


Back to the initial purpose, though. The book,

So to speak, this is just one more promo link for SLF, but thank you, livejournal friends.
I owe it to you more than anyone, and whether this book becomes popular or not, I am extremely satisfied with it because it turned out just the way I wanted it.

You can buy it on amazon, but I recommend buying it on createspace instead.

Use this coupon code: SM3AUVDT and get a 3$ discount (on createspace only, for the hard copy).

You can purchase the Kindle version at amazon. You can also check for previews at the product page.
 
 
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bloodburden on May 14th, 2012 03:23 am (UTC)
I'm really proud of you and so happy that you finally decided to publish. Maybe you just weren't ready till now but I'm glad you finally took that step. =) I added it to my Amazon wishlist so I hope to get it soon. Thank you for letting us inside your head, into the depths of the sea of your dreams. I've always thought and professed that you write beautifully, I've always felt that every single bit of you is a piece of Art. Your colorful and kind spirit will always be what I'll always remember of you most. Love you always! <3
eye1ess_maggot on May 14th, 2012 07:28 am (UTC)
Congratulations. I am very very proud. And I read you.
si6nifi3r on May 21st, 2012 01:55 am (UTC)
I'm honored. <3